Oopdate!

Welp! It's time for another update. See how long that last blogging streak went? Yeah. It's been five months since I've blogged, lol. Whatever..

So! I AM FINALLY DONE WITH MY BACHELOR'S DEGREE!!!! I friggin' hope. Last time I got all excited I found out they'd made a mistake and so that's why I've been in school the past five months and unable to blog or breathe or anything! Grrrrr... Hopefully, now, finally, I am done :)

With my graduation though, I'm a little nervous. What the freak am I supposed to do with my life now, eh? Go to grad school, have a baby, find a full-time job, become a bum, enter the circus.. I really don't know. I'm leaning toward the latter though.. sounds less stressful.

I  hate growing up. I hate thinking about bills, taxes, insurance, school, money, being RESPONSIBLE. I always wished I could grow up and be on my own and live my own life and now I'd give anything to go back to being my snotty-nosed self. I miss being able to think about something I wanted to do, and being able to do it. You wanna play lava tag and jump from couch to couch and smack your head on a coffee table? Do it. You wanna make up music videos and record yourself and your friends lip sing to the Backstreet Boys or Spice Girls? Go for it! Do it allllll. Because you're never gonna grow up... But, that's the thing. You do grow up. And sometimes it's really no fun. Boooo hooooo.

Can I just say, this laptop is so ghetto. The charger struggles to stay plugged so it's being propped up right now and if I move my computer it quits charging and threatens to turn off. "Only 1% battery life remaining." Really?! Had it since high school though, it's been good to me.

Anywho, back to the update, lol. I guess that's what it is. This is mostly me just having all this free time I don't know what to do with myself so I'm attempting to blog. Pete got a new job out at the Wal Mart Distribution Center and now I have the nights from about 6:30 to 1:00pm all to myself. I'm still working at the BGC---HOLLA! Love that place... and my kids. Seriously. So yeah. What to do with free time when you don't have to do reading or homework.. So far tonight I have... Said I was going running, decided to stay home and eat three hot dogs while watching The Colbert Report. Said I was going to learn how to cook so I could be this awesome wife and make my hubby fat because he loves my food so much.. Then I made plain white rice with super easy freezer chicken. I guess I did do the dishes..

So since before, when I only had like a year left of school, I've been going through this weird phase where I think I want a baby. HAH! I just am dying to get morning sickness, and aches, and mood-swings all for a little poopy whiney amoeba baby. (Huh. And apparently according to Google Chrome spell-check the word "poopy" does not exist. Depressing.) So yeah! I keep thinking I want a baby. One day I'm like YES! ME NEED BABY--RIGHT MEOW!!!! And then the next day I'm like no... GRAD SCHOOL! MUST CHANGE THE WORLD! MUST SOLVE WORLD HUNGER! So, as you can see, I'm a little conflicted. Half of my family is wanting me and Pete to take that next step and have a little poopy child (which I would love :D) and the other half wants us to (understandably) get more stable. A house, steady jobs, some money saved up, that'd be great. So, I don't know what to do. And with having a baby, say I have one in 9 months, do I want to stay home? I hear a lot of horror stories about moms going crazy staying home with kids all day after changing 5,000 diapers a day and watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse reruns over, and over, and over... I feel like since I've graduated I've always been super busy. Going to school, working, spending time with my dysfunctionally perfect family...:).... I don't know how I would do sitting home all day although sometimes it seems nice when my head is spinning off into another dimension...

Laptop won't charge... must not throw at wall...

LITERALLY 10 minutes later...

So, such is the life a grown-up. To have a baby, to go to grad school, to do it all, to join the circus (seriously), or not to do. At this point I have no idea which path we'll choose only time will tell. If you have any advice though, on staying home or working part time or going to school first, feel free to let it all out! Any advice would be appreciated.

Don't Worry, Be Happy --Bobby McFerrin. Look it up on the youtube. Dooo it!