Número dos

Oh, hey there sunshine! I just have to say, today is Thursday. Know what that means? Tomorrow is FRIDAY! My most favorite day of all. Kids at the club: "Why is Friday your favorite day Kyler? Is it because you like french fries?" Answer: yes,  yes of course strange child. Why else would it be my favorite day? 

Number 2! 

2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

Hmm... one fear I (like most people) have is the fear of people in my family dying/getting sick/hurt/etc. I think that's a big fear for everyone because you become so close to people it's impossible to imagine life with them just not, existing. I've always assumed I'd get cancer or die in a freak soccer accident because people always think "it'll never happen to me." Maybe if I assume it will happen to me it will be less likely to happen. Makes perfect sense...right? But as for those closest to me, I don't want anything bad to happen to them. I wish I could create this magic bubble that they were always encompassed in and nothing bad could happen to them. Of course the bubble would have to be more like a suit and it would have to be uber thin and transparent and...stretchy. Yes, stretchy bubble suits for all! 

Another fear I could list is... my fear of unmet expectations, if that makes any sense at all. I think unmet expectations are the cause of so much stress for everyone. We think our jobs should be one way and when they're not, we become frustrated or stressed. "This isn't what I signed up for!" We expect to get married and be the perfect spouse to our perfect spouse. We expect our kids to turn out just the way we want; to be Olympic Medalist Nobel Prize-winning superhuman geniuses and well, they probably won't be. I feel like we look around at other people's lives and think, "wow, I wish my life was that exciting/fun/happy/perfect/easy/spontaneous/(insert your own word here)." Truth is, we need to be more realistic. My fear is that I will map out my life, how I want it to be, where I want to be in five or ten years and it won't be like that. Although I know it won't, I fear I'll have a hard time accepting whatever my life has become. Hopefully not though. I hope I can learn to be at peace with the twists and turns of life and be happy with every single thing, good and bad, in my life. 

Tonight I'm on a real nice computer. I don't even have to worry about it blinking "1% battery remaining." WIIIIIIIIIN!

Third fear... spiders. Ha just kidding they're not that bad. Oh wait, YES THEY ARE! So they help life go round and are important to the food chain and rid of us pesky bugs... yeah yeah yeah I've heard it a million times before. When people give me this lecture when I tell them how much I hate spiders I just want to say, "oh yeah, spiders are great. Here, let's put one on your hand so it can crawl up your arm and into your ear and lay eggs inside your brain so they can hatch and kill you slowly while evolving into a hybrid human-spider that takes over the world." Still like them? Didn't think so. 

So this week I was like, "yeah, I can be domestic; lets start a garden!" Started this little container garden with sunflowers and (randomly) Dill. Just wanted to see if I could even get anything to grow. After a few days, guess what... THEY GREWWWW. I was so excited; jumping around and doing the sunflower party dance. Pete looked at me like I was crazy (what's new) but I didn't care. I made a plant! It's like a baby. You buy from the store. And keep outside. And give plenty of sun and water. Just like a baby.... But anyway, they are pretty awesome. I check them each and every day. But one day..........something horrifying happened..............I lifted the container up to move it and guess what I see? Oh just little pockets of harmless dirt on the bottom of the container in the crevices. I go to wash it off with a paper towel (thank the heavens I didn't use my HAND) and this peculiar dirt... begins to move!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's right. The sneaky dirt was actually baby demon spiders. And baby demon spider eggs. And you can't kill them all because they're too small and crawly and falling on your hands and arms and you freak out and almost drop you precious growing mini plant babies! So yeah, I'm officially traumatized. I think I got most of the little guys but with my luck they'll be back and have evolved by next week. So yeah, spiders are creepy and if I could put a little imaginary spider blocker around my house, that'd be great too. I'd totally be out there gardening to my little heart's desire. But for now...not happenin. 

Come On Eileen--Dexy's Midnight Runners & Kevin Rowland

Driftin'--The Dirty Heads

Ray of Light--Madonna 

Block After Block--Matt & Kim

Blogger Challenge: Accepted

So, I've recently seen a little thing on a lot of my friend's blogs with a bunch of questions to be answered/blogged about. My friends are so cool. Someday I'll be as cool as they are. Answering these things will be fun because I like to write but it will also be kinda cool if someday I can look back and read the answers and maybe my kids can read it too! Hey kids! It's your mom! From the fuuuuuuutuuuuure...... mwahahhaa. Wait, would it be the future? Or the past since I'm writing it now.. #mindblown #ihatehashtags #justgoingwithit 

Anywho, here goes! Also, trying out some bold font here for my bold self. We'll see which one I like...

#1. List 10 random facts about yourself. 

1. I have a weird taste in music. I guess weird is objective but it seems weird in comparison to other peoples... I like new stuff, Kelly Clarkson, Katy Perry, Beyonce. I like random stuff (thanks to my awesome sister) like Regina Spektor, Matt and Kim, Mumford and Sons, Frank Sinatra. I like old stuff (thanks to my papa's awesome love for CLASSIC ROCK! YEAH!) lol like Styx, Led Zepplin, CCR, The Cars. I like those guilty pleasure songs/bands. Spice Girls, Backstreet Boys, "Alright now stop, collaborate and listen..." And I'm starting to like some orchestral/classical music. I'm loving 2cellos, Chopin, Penguin Cafe Orchestra,  stuff like that. I think I like a little bit of everything MINUS idiotic RAP CRAP that talks about terrible things and like, burst-your-eardrums opera. 

2. Okay, the bold had to go. Next thing could be... my love for the animals. I can't tell you how often I go home (to my granny's) just to see my cats. Cosmo and Gizmo (spelling has been heavily debated). I just love those furry little guys, they have legit personalities that makes me love all animals. I love cats, dogs, guinea pigs, bunnies, chinchillas, dolphins, and birds. Although birds creep me out sometimes... RIGHT?! 

3.  I am a freak. I love to be silly and hyper and spazzy when I feel comfortable. Unfortunately, the two people that see the most of this side of me are my sister and husband and I think they can mostly only handle it in small doses. It just feels good to be crazy and yourself and to just laugh though. Laughter IS the best medicine. Thanks granny. 

4. I am thee pickiest eater in the entire world! People tell me, you'll eat it when you get hungry enough. NOT TRUE. I can be starving, having lost 5 pounds, and disgusting food will make me GAG. Seriously, I've done it. I'm trying to shy away from this (for the sake of my husband and future children) but it's very difficult. I'd be perfectly happy sticking to my white rice, hot dogs, spaghetti o's, mac n' cheese, and frozen pizzas. Mmmm...frozen pizzas....  

5. I love kids. I've worked with kids for about 5 years now and all I can say is that they have all changed me for the better and have made me a happier person. They are just so honest and ignorant of the things of the world. You can always trust a child to let you know if you look fat in your outfit, or have a huge zit on your nose, or to blame their farts on you.. But really you can't even deny it. Because then that would mean that everyone would know that they farted, and they'd be embarrassed. So you just have to take the bullet for the kid and pretend that nasty stinker was yours... 

6. I'm a people-pleaser. This is both a good thing and bad thing. Sometimes I feel obsessed with making sure that everyone is happy and content. My needs can wait as long as I'm helping someone to be little more happier. My husband might argue this because he gets the majority of my selfish shellfish side since he's always with me :P That's right. When someone is selfish in our house they're called a selfish shellfish. It's great. My husband is often giving me "the look" because I volunteer our help, car, brain, cat.. You get it. 

7.  Running out of random facts... Lets see herrrr. I can't wait to start my little family. Pete and I are our own family right now and I love it, but I def have this weird creepy maternal feeling where I get so excited to have my own little whipper-snapper. I can't wait to be the best mom ever! And I'm so excited that they'll also have the best dad ever :) 

8. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE. As I've talked about in previous posts I can't decide on whether to have a baby or go to grad school or to do something else. I'm told to pray about it and trust me, I sure do and have been for a while. But I think the big man upstairs wants me and Pete to kind of figure out our own path. I mean, he can't tell us everything we should do every step of the way. Hopefully we can figure it out before I'm old and pruned. #mykidswon'tknowifi'mtheirmomorgrandma bahahahahahaha.

9. Skipped. Maybe someday I'll think of another thing to put here. Right now I'm too tired. PAH!

10. I sure do love my family. I don't feel like I have a lot of close friends because I'd rather invest time into the family I have. Maybe that's not true at all and I just tell myself that to make myself feel better about not having any friends................................................................... hahahhaa. But yeah, my fam is the best. I just love my hubby and sister and oma and auntie and mama and papa and all the cousins and in-laws and people I never see but I'm told I'm related to them through step-law-twice-removed-adopted and yeah.... all of those people. Love you all. 

Here's the list, if you want to do this too: (THANKS JACEY :D)
1. List 10 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your spouse.
4. List 5 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. If you could have three wishes, what would you wish for?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 5 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.
11. Describe 5 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. What’s the hardest part of growing up?
14. Describe 5 weaknesses and strengths you have.
15. Describe when you knew your spouse was the one or how I fell in love.
16. What are your 2 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What do you think your spouse loves most about you?
19. How did you feel the moment you became a parent?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. Describe your relationship with your parents.
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. What’s your favorite holiday and why?
24. What’s your favorite and least favorite thing about parenthood?
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What’s your favorite quality in your spouse?
29. What are your hopes and dreams for your posterity?
30. Who were your childhood best friends?
31. List 5 things you would hope to be remembered for.

Oopdate!

Welp! It's time for another update. See how long that last blogging streak went? Yeah. It's been five months since I've blogged, lol. Whatever..

So! I AM FINALLY DONE WITH MY BACHELOR'S DEGREE!!!! I friggin' hope. Last time I got all excited I found out they'd made a mistake and so that's why I've been in school the past five months and unable to blog or breathe or anything! Grrrrr... Hopefully, now, finally, I am done :)

With my graduation though, I'm a little nervous. What the freak am I supposed to do with my life now, eh? Go to grad school, have a baby, find a full-time job, become a bum, enter the circus.. I really don't know. I'm leaning toward the latter though.. sounds less stressful.

I  hate growing up. I hate thinking about bills, taxes, insurance, school, money, being RESPONSIBLE. I always wished I could grow up and be on my own and live my own life and now I'd give anything to go back to being my snotty-nosed self. I miss being able to think about something I wanted to do, and being able to do it. You wanna play lava tag and jump from couch to couch and smack your head on a coffee table? Do it. You wanna make up music videos and record yourself and your friends lip sing to the Backstreet Boys or Spice Girls? Go for it! Do it allllll. Because you're never gonna grow up... But, that's the thing. You do grow up. And sometimes it's really no fun. Boooo hooooo.

Can I just say, this laptop is so ghetto. The charger struggles to stay plugged so it's being propped up right now and if I move my computer it quits charging and threatens to turn off. "Only 1% battery life remaining." Really?! Had it since high school though, it's been good to me.

Anywho, back to the update, lol. I guess that's what it is. This is mostly me just having all this free time I don't know what to do with myself so I'm attempting to blog. Pete got a new job out at the Wal Mart Distribution Center and now I have the nights from about 6:30 to 1:00pm all to myself. I'm still working at the BGC---HOLLA! Love that place... and my kids. Seriously. So yeah. What to do with free time when you don't have to do reading or homework.. So far tonight I have... Said I was going running, decided to stay home and eat three hot dogs while watching The Colbert Report. Said I was going to learn how to cook so I could be this awesome wife and make my hubby fat because he loves my food so much.. Then I made plain white rice with super easy freezer chicken. I guess I did do the dishes..

So since before, when I only had like a year left of school, I've been going through this weird phase where I think I want a baby. HAH! I just am dying to get morning sickness, and aches, and mood-swings all for a little poopy whiney amoeba baby. (Huh. And apparently according to Google Chrome spell-check the word "poopy" does not exist. Depressing.) So yeah! I keep thinking I want a baby. One day I'm like YES! ME NEED BABY--RIGHT MEOW!!!! And then the next day I'm like no... GRAD SCHOOL! MUST CHANGE THE WORLD! MUST SOLVE WORLD HUNGER! So, as you can see, I'm a little conflicted. Half of my family is wanting me and Pete to take that next step and have a little poopy child (which I would love :D) and the other half wants us to (understandably) get more stable. A house, steady jobs, some money saved up, that'd be great. So, I don't know what to do. And with having a baby, say I have one in 9 months, do I want to stay home? I hear a lot of horror stories about moms going crazy staying home with kids all day after changing 5,000 diapers a day and watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse reruns over, and over, and over... I feel like since I've graduated I've always been super busy. Going to school, working, spending time with my dysfunctionally perfect family...:).... I don't know how I would do sitting home all day although sometimes it seems nice when my head is spinning off into another dimension...

Laptop won't charge... must not throw at wall...

LITERALLY 10 minutes later...

So, such is the life a grown-up. To have a baby, to go to grad school, to do it all, to join the circus (seriously), or not to do. At this point I have no idea which path we'll choose only time will tell. If you have any advice though, on staying home or working part time or going to school first, feel free to let it all out! Any advice would be appreciated.

Don't Worry, Be Happy --Bobby McFerrin. Look it up on the youtube. Dooo it!

Back in the Groove!

I haven't blogged in for-ev-er! But, I've been seeing a lot my friends blogging (they're just so good at it!) and decided to give it a go again. Another reason I want to blog is because it really is fun seeing how things were before and reading about experiences that I can't remember as much as I thought I would. Maybe someday my kiddies will read this, too.

To catch up, because there is a LOT of catching up to do.. this will be a small sliver of what has gone on since my last post!

Got that job, liked it at first, hated that job, quit that job.
Moved to Brigham.
Found a great place to live after being homeless-ish for a few days.
Made more amazing memories with my sweetums.
Started work back at the B&G Club again.
Got promoted.
Said no to the promotion after doing it for a summer and absolutely hating it.
Started work with the kids again, right where I love to be.
Spent time with family.
NEVER FINISHED SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL and died an old woman. JK... but seriously.

Now, the last one I will explain a little bit. Tomorrow is Monday, January 7th; it SHOULD be my first semester not having to attend classes in like, 5 years. But, it's not. Unfortunately as I went to submit my graduation papers my adviser had made a mistake and didn't tell me I had 9 MORE CREDITS (electives, I might add...) that I needed to graduate. I was really really really angry at first... but now I just have to slap myself in the face mentally, and be thankful for the fact that I even have the opportunity to attend school. Which I am. I'm so thankful. I'm just ready to be done, too.

This last year, 2012, was full of ups and downs. Pete and I went through more things in our life than I would have ever expected. I'm happy to say though that we have made it through them. We're starting another year together, and we're only stronger and closer.

Hopefully I can keep this groove up and keep on blogging! I really enjoy it, when I'm not too busy getting caught up in grammar and the way things sound. We'll see! Gooooood night!

Whewww!

So our life has changed...quite dramatically since my last post! Pete had been working at Convergys and I was tutoring kids for USU and we were just kinda doing our thing. We then got a text from one of my friends asking if we were working and that her job was hiring if we were interested. The job was at a youth treatment center for boys ages 12-17 and here's the kicker, Pete and I would be a LIVE-IN couple! The company pays for everything and we get a monthly salary. Well, to make a long story short--we took the job! We now live in the big house with the other two live-in couples and so far things are so good. Everything is super different but it has been really good. We're really excited to start working with boys and the awesome staff that already work here. I'll be blogging about all of the changes next time but for now, life is just flying!

Who knows..

So, right now I'm in one of those moods where I just have no idea what to expect outta life. Since I've gotten married, for once in my life, I've almost completely stopped caring about school. My homework, reading, assignments, etc., just haven't been a priority this semester. Maybe it's because I'm a senior and will be graduating soon (YES!) or maybe things just change after you get married; priorities change. I've always wanted to graduate with a bachelor's in psych and go on and get my masters in social work or marriage and family therapy or counseling. Right now I don't even feel like I want to go to school ever again, lol. And even if I do, I'll only work for a short time before we start a family, right?? Hopefully this is just a phase.. Next semester is going to kick my butt though so hopefully this phase gets over ASAP.

Another thing that kinda has me in a weird mood is the fact that it doesn't even feel like Christmas! I dunno if getting married is also contributing to that, since it'll be my first Christmas away from home, but it just feels like, January. I dunno what my deal is! We put our Christmas tree up tonight though so hopefully that will help!

Work is going really well. I thought for sure I could never love any kids as much as I loved the kids at the Boys and Girls Club, but I've been mistaken. I love love love the kids I work with now, too. They are so sweet and really brighten up my life. I've also been teaching ESL (English as a second language) an hour before work every day. This has been quite the experience! I've always thought about teaching and apparently I'm pretty good at it. It's also kinda cool because we get to use "Direct Instruction" which I've learned about in a couple of my psych classes and it's pretty interesting to see how effective it is. So, that's been fun :)

Another thing that's been going on is soccer. We signed up for an indoor league down in Ogden and we play about once a week. The team is pretty darn awesome because it's mostly family. There's me, Peter, Beth, Jessica, Brett, Marcos, JD, Pedro, (all Legua's/Allen's) and Katie and Jordon (some really close friends). It's so fun. The downside is the time of the games. We're usually playing at times between 9-11:00 PM! Some games are later and some are earlier; however, our last three have been at like 11:20. Disgusting. It's really no fun when you have to leave Ogden at 12:30 at night and drive to Brigham and then to Logan.. Then we get to wake up at 5:30 so Peter can go to work. So that's lame! But still, the team is great and soccer is fun enough that I'm okay with a little sleep deprivation.

So there's an update on my life! Things are going pretty well. I think I'm just worn out from school and work and staying up late to really be too chipper right now. Hopefully once I get a break from school things will lighten up a bit. Ta-ta for now!

Also, I might be starting an anonymous blog kinda thing. We shall see :)

My favorite time of year!

So I haven't blogged for a while but I have a few minutes before my next class so I think I will. Normally, with a few minutes here and there between classes I like to catch up on reading for school or any homework I have; however, the textbook I need to read right now is extremely graphic and I'm too embarrassed to read it in public. Seriously! What professor assigns you to read such a graphic book, lol. The class is called Human Sexuality (required for my FCHD minor) and it's pretty weird, but...educational? Hahaha who knows..

So right now life is good. Unfortunately I've just failed two exams, so that REALLY sucks but I can't complain. I'm married to my best friend and we're finally on our own and living our own life. I love our apartment (even though we live by some creepy people and there are unexplained odd smells that possess it sometimes) and it's pretty nice for our first place. We still haven't put all of our wedding gifts away because I feel like I need to write my thank-yous first... I'm a little OCD sometimes I think. Peter has to keep me from being a crazy person all the time, lol.

The wedding was amazing :) I don't think if I could I would change one thing about it. Our families were so supportive and helpful and we had almost everything done and ready so we just got to enjoy our day. I'm not only lucky to be married to such a great guy, I'm lucky he has such an awesome family! The honeymoon was great, also. Unfortunately we had to cut it short and change our plans because of school (which started on the 29th) but we still had a great time. With only 3 days we managed to stay in a nice hotel in Salt Lake, visit Zion National Park, zipline, 4-wheel, go horseback-riding, swim, and mini golf. Peter planned the trip and it was just perfect :)

Along with the wedding and school, things have been really really good. My grandma is just getting out of the hospital and her surgery went well and she seems like she's recovering without too much pain. Which makes me sooo happy! I'm going to pick her up today. Work is also going well! I hate starting a new job but I really like the work I do. I'm working at Lincoln Elementary School at an after-school tutoring program. I work mainly with 1st and 2nd graders and they are adorable. I love helping them read and seeing them improve :) just makes me happy!

For the next few months I'll just be trying to catch up in school, adjust to being a newlywed and all of that fun stuff, and working. I'm excited for what's to come and...

OCTOBER! My most favorite time of year! I feel like, even though it's not very close to Halloween, it's right around the corner! I can't wait for it. The only thing that would make things better would be if I were back at the Club making glue ghosts, haunted houses, and reading scary stories. I sure do miss those kids! But I'm really starting to love the kids I work with now as well.

Well that's about it in my life. I'm sure I'm missing some shtuff but that's the gist of it :) I'm happy and things are really going well. I'm so thankful and so blessed :)